Dependency, and Other Fears

They say, "Be careful what you wish for, because you might get it." Singapore sounded like a grand adventure--until I realized that I'll be there on a dependent visa.  Cue panic attack!  I wasn't planning to work full-time while living there.  At most, I hoped to work part-time or teach a few lessons a week.  Well, now …

Ugly Feelings and the Dinner from Hell, Part 2

As promised, here is part 2 of the story… The Dinner from Hell. (Click here for part 1!) When M’s secretly-but-not-so-secretly-in-love-with-him female friend moved away, I breathed a sigh of relief. One less thing to worry about! But then she came back for a weekend. It turned out that the three of us we were …

Ugly Feelings and the Dinner from Hell, Part 1

I occasionally suffer from bouts of extreme paranoia where M is concerned. The rational side of me knows there is nothing to worry about—he’s a good guy, we’re so good together, and he wouldn’t be marrying me if he were exploring other options. But sometimes it’s hard to shut down the little voices. Even the …

A Direction, Not a Destination

I've been feeling tense lately--the kind of tense that makes me rigid and clumsy, and has me constantly on edge and as if the world could crumble beneath my feet at any second.  Things have been a bit rocky--not just with wedding planning, but with my personal goals as well.  I feel like I'm always a …

Wedding Planning Bloopers: “Celebrate With Us!”

M and I have less than 100 days left before the big day, and we're scrambling to tie up loose ends!  Every task on our two-page to-do list seems to grow exponentially more complicated the moment we try to tackle it. To make things worse, it seems that for everything that goes right, there’s an equal …

Love: Fact and Fiction

I am a love junkie, but not a love optimist.  I don't believe in "the one" or "soulmates" or "happily ever after" anymore. I used to fully buy into the myth that someone out there in the world would “complete” me.  I believed that as soon as I found this one person, all of my …

July Project Updates!

June flew by, and suddenly it's that time again!  I honestly don't know if these posts are interesting to anyone who reads this blog... If you do read/skim/glance at this post, please let me know your thoughts!  My ultimate goal would be to have a group of bloggers share comments about their monthly progress and successes--or …